I am wrting .......writing because i have to !
Should i be reconciling with the fact that this is the best possible version of life or should i fight back!
look for alternatives! simply look........look beyond all the murkiness......look to be 'wowed'......god knows i want to. (at this point ive lost the will to make the "i's" capital)
all i want is some serenity. some semblance of "me" that ive absolutely lost along the way.
and it has not been that long of a way either! i'm so young.
i cant believe that i'm only 25 and in the mess that i m in!
and i ve always done the right thing mind you...everything conventional...have been politically correct so to say....havent had much of fun or adventure...have been the goody two shoes more or less....and still i had to run into such a vicious scenario completely lacking grace !
i have a sister.
opposite poles.
completely different set of choices we made both professionally and personally.
and both of our lives suck!
life has got to be a vampire! very cheesy or is it funny?
i cant decide anymore.
are all tragedies a comedy and vice versa?
i am not speaking in the sense of the usual youth associated jargon "oh yaa! life it sucks!" . i literally mean irrevocably damaged. hopeless. abyss.
we dont have the guts to break free because we have lived such protected lives that we are not sure what lies beyond. what if its worse? but isnt good and bad a relative phenomena?
i have some breathers like the caption that i added to this blog...but they are far from the answer i'm looking for...(yes ive read paulo coehlo...he is great but i am no brida....can i ever be?)
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